I hope you didn't notice how my hands were trembling placed on my knees were shaking. I could feel my calf rubbing against your soft legs every time it shook. You had to have noticed. I know you know I was afraid. I was afraid you wouldn't like me like I liked you. I liked you so much, still do. I was afraid you'd see how afraid I was and you'd hate me just the same. Who is this timid boy? And why does he convulse when he's close to my heart? I know you know I was afraid. I was afraid you'd open the door and leave me behind, and leave me still afraid of a lonely world, I was such a lonely boy, and I was afraid I'd be one again. I know you know I was afraid. I hope you know I still am so afraid, because I can't lose you now. I won't lose you now.